This theme has been over. Rick, I suggest to make an appointment with a psyquiatric doctor. This place exacerbate your pain and I hope you do not make a wrong step with your health.
We all have had love deceptions and we have been able to cope with it.

So, stop your laments, this is insane and please ask for professional help.

The risk with normal relations are common, but with illusions on virtual relations, let me say it is sick.

Do this favor, stop here and have a professional to help you.
Truly yours,

Sal